The Importance of Being Neat

I always thought I was a naturally neat person. But I'm doubting that now. I do like things neat and in their place, but I'm beginning to realize that although I like things in order, I'm too lazy to really maintain it. It was easy to do when I had more available time. Now, I just procrastinate, and say I'm too tired. Maybe I am too tired, but I also think I'm just plain lazy.

My desk at work is pretty much a disaster, and I'm a little embarrassed by my whole office. Papers are stacked in my so-called in box. There are piles on my desk. Even when I do try to get organized, there are always things left over that I don't know what to do with. My boss annoyingly tells me that I just need to be better organized. That just pisses me off, and makes me NOT want to be organized, because there, I do believe most of the problem is lack of time.

At home, even though I say it's because I have no time, I'm beginning to realize that maybe I'm not who I thought I was. It's a little disturbing - I'm having trouble reconciling the way I want to be with the way I think truly I am. Do I deny the slobby person within? Shouldn't I accept who I am and just forget about organizing my closet, and cleaning up the sewing room? But, I get frustrated when I go into a room and I can't find anything, don't have room to work. Are these traits innate, or learned? Am I just getting old and tired?

My solution in the past is to just move. And it's worked just fine! When you move into a new place, you can put everything where it's supposed to go, and it stays that way for awhile. By the time things get all crapped up, it's time to move. That won't work forever though.